It's a damn cold night...

Forgiving is love's toughest work, and love's biggest risk. To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.
いつか失ってしまうのかな。薄れてゆく笑顔と君を守りたい。
-- D-technolife

If fate is a wheel, then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs.

Don't judge a life by one difficult season.

独自并不代表孤单,在一群人中狂笑着有时更寂寞。
-- 吴庆康

At times it may not even seem rational, but the heart has a computing ability that is far more accurate and far more precise than anything within the limits of rational thought.
-- Deepak Chopra
于是我让孤独更孤独,有一种不是悲伤的悲伤,才是刻骨铭心的悲伤。
Grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love.
-- St Francis.
People's actions are influenced by their expectations. People respond not just to what is happening now, but to what they anticipate will happen in the future.
-- Sloman
不管你会不会忘了我,我只想告诉你一个秘密。
--《不能说的·秘密》

Every action generates a force of energy that returns to us in like kind.
-- Deepak Chopra

The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death but when I stand in front of you yet you don't know that I love you.
-- Tagore
Do do not worry about tomorrow; it will have enough worries of its own. There is no need to add to the troubles each day brings.
-- Matt 6:34

まだ不器用に笑うね まだ悲しみが似合うから
キミに降る痛みを 拭ってあげたい すべて I for you
-- I For You

the optimistic pessimist

supposedly an adult, she thinks like an adult (too much, if you ask me). deep inside, she is nothing but a little girl, with her little lofty dreams and ideals. and oops, she is breaking them, one by one.
more often than not, she is just an angsty emo kid.

she is only but
a passer-by,

an onlooker,
a walking shadow.

and this girl can't stop writing.

she stalks

|| cyn bea bao zou mel ||
|| joan weepz ||
|| blockc yeanching lehia kexi zhenlin horace alvin dina sandra becca tzehee ||
|| cruzteng peifen dasmondkoh ||
|| xiaozhu xiaogui sunxiezhi ashin kangyong ||
|| derrick jinglun stefsun natho lawrencewong ||
|| feliciachin joannepeh jeanetteaw sharonaw ||
|| xiaohan hyr chimkang mingde dannyyeo ||
|| xuyunling alvinology mrbrown esther ||
|| drbondar psychdigest ||
|| kfdrawing iwrotethisforyou thingsweforget ||

After all, what is in the past but what we choose to remember? They can choose not to hide it, to take what's broken, to feel the pain and know that it will heal. They know where happiness lies, not in a cave or a country, but in love and the freedom to give and take what has been there all along.
-- The Bonesetter's Daughter

she watches on

Others desire to experience the blessedness of giving, but we often frustrate them by refusing their help.


“你有心事吗?”
“或许有一天,我会告诉你吧。”
--《不能说的·秘密》

she holds on

 Memories were also a way of looking in a mirror, but it was a jagged mirror of broken glass, one that cast imperfect reflections. Like shards, these memories drew blood.

February 2003 March 2003 April 2003 May 2003 June 2003 July 2003 September 2003 October 2003 November 2003 December 2003 January 2004 February 2004 March 2004 April 2004 May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 January 2012 February 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 January 2013 February 2013 March 2013 April 2013 May 2013 June 2013 July 2013 August 2013 September 2013 October 2013 November 2013 December 2013 January 2014 February 2014 March 2014 April 2014 May 2014 June 2014 July 2014 August 2014 September 2014 October 2014 November 2014 December 2014 January 2015 February 2015 March 2015 April 2015 May 2015 July 2015 September 2015 October 2015 November 2015 December 2015 January 2016 February 2016 March 2016 April 2016 May 2016 June 2016 August 2016 September 2016 October 2016 November 2016 December 2016 January 2017 February 2017 April 2017 May 2017 August 2017 September 2017 October 2017 November 2017 December 2017 January 2018 February 2018 April 2018 June 2018 July 2018 September 2018 October 2018 November 2018 December 2018 February 2019 April 2019 June 2019 August 2019 October 2019 December 2019 January 2020 February 2020 March 2020 April 2020 May 2020 July 2020 November 2020 February 2021 April 2021 July 2021 September 2021 November 2021 March 2022

she never gets

永远不会交的功课 || 永远不会实现的愿望

|| you ||

Responsibility means not blaming anyone or anything for your situation, including yourself... Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.
-- Deepak Chopra

she thanks

Designer : Wei Jun
Brushes : Deviantart - Spy Glass

I don't know, I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm a pair of eyes and ears, and I'm just trying to stay safe and make sense of what's happening. I know what to avoid, what to worry about.I'm like those kids who live with gunfire going off around them. I don't want pain. I don't want to die. I don't want to see other people around me die. But I don't have anything left inside me to figure out where I fit in or what I want. If I want anything, it's to know what's possible to want.
-- The Bonesetter's Daughter

Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

Thursday, November 26, 2009
withers away @ 11:20 pm

have you lost anything, and wished there was a place you could go to to retrieve it? has anyone gave you the cold shoulder too?

has anyone
lost
the smile,
as time went by?

MV OS (被我找到了!)
廣播人員:各位旅客您好,這裡是服務台失物招領中心,
有旅客在第七月台尋獲笑容兩個,
在博愛座上尋獲良心一枚,
尚待領取的還有友誼.恐懼.單純,
請遺失的旅客盡速至本處取回,若逾時無人認領我們將全數移至過期倉庫儲存

梁文音:你好
廣播人員:你掉了什麼啊
梁文音:我掉了勇敢跟堅強
廣播人員:沒有喔!不然留一下你的電話和姓名,我幫你廣播一下
梁文音:喔

男:不好意思,我的擁抱掉了
廣播人員:那你要不要再去找一個新的啊

另一男:小姐
廣播人員:又是你啊。沒有人撿到你的夢想

女:請問有人撿到童年嗎
廣播人員:這種過期的東西我們通常都會直接丟掉喔

戴眼鏡男:請問有沒有人撿到愛情
廣播人員:那邊的垃圾桶裡面有一些一夜情你要嗎?

另一女:小姐我的初吻找到了嗎?
廣播人員:我不是跟你說過沒有人找到嗎?這麼想要的話那我的給你好了

帶毛帽男:小姐
廣播人員:什麼事?
帶毛帽男:小姐你的笑容掉了
廣播人員:那你有撿到嗎?

梁文音:請問我的勇敢跟堅強找到了嗎?
廣播人員:還是沒有人找到耶
廣播人員:不然我再幫你廣播一次好嗎?
梁文音:謝謝

廣播人員:親愛旅客您好這裡是服務台失物招領中心
有一位旅客梁文音小姐他遺失了勇敢和堅強
這兩樣物品對他來說非常的重要
若是你撿到了請你趕快送到服務台來

因為,
她不是你想像的那麼勇敢。

It's something Mystical

Monday, November 23, 2009
withers away @ 4:48 pm

i tell u murphy is really my best friend. period. i'm sure he's other ppl's best friends at times too.
sneezing coughing sore throat fever. no ink no paper no sleep. cab fare printing fee binding fee. even the comps and toilets dun like me. murphy is perfect in times like these.
and u think it's over? nah, another deadline on wed. *slaps forehead*
but now, i change out, pop a panadol and SLEEP. byebye.

It's something Mystical

Sunday, November 22, 2009
withers away @ 9:15 pm

hmmm. i've mentioned a few good friends i've made in the past few yrs. like wiki and google. i realized i've got another one too. nv really acknowledged him before, though he's been there for pretty long.
meet my good friend, murphy.

It's something Mystical

Friday, November 20, 2009
withers away @ 1:41 am

在这种飘雨的日子……

It's something Mystical

Tuesday, November 17, 2009
withers away @ 10:36 pm

had a pretty fun lesson today. each group was given a quail egg and an A4 sheet of paper. told to fry the egg using only energy derived from the paper. supposed to use as little of that paper as possible. cannot use the bunsen burner directly on the egg. no other instructions or tips given. so we just brainstormed abt random ways. couldnt really try out various ideas cos we only had that one sheet of paper.
so we used a small beaker, lined it with aluminum foil within and stacked aluminium foil in it too. cracked the egg into a crucible, wrapped the whole thing up in aluminium foil, fastened with rubber bands and turned it over, so the egg was on the aluminium foil with the crucible covered over it. whole idea is to keep the heat within. lit up pieces of paper and threw it into the beaker, before putting the (egg+crucible) in aluminum foil over. decided we need more oxygen supply so started blowing into it (same idea as blowing/fanning over charcoal in bbq).
couldn't tell whether the egg is fried/cooked/whatever, coz everything was wrapped up. we... just went by instincts. we did have the luxury of time, coz tutor didn't tell us when he needed us to stop. used an hour from his intro, to planning and executing.
this, is the result, which we are really proud of. dun u think it's just so cute? (not fully cooked though. the egg white on top is still watery.)

It's something Mystical

Saturday, November 14, 2009
withers away @ 2:06 pm

as though it has always been to satisfy my own need.

It's something Mystical

Friday, November 13, 2009
withers away @ 9:14 am

friday the 13th. it has never failed me. so what will it be this time round? *sadistically anticipates*

It's something Mystical

Friday, November 06, 2009
withers away @ 6:49 pm

while waiting ytd, i popped into harris and picked up this book to read. it was a book of rules for relationships. naturally the chapter on love is the longest, but there was one on friendship too. i skimmed through and realized why it was so short.
the first rule stated: there are no rules. u take your friend as who he is. then it said never to give advice even if u see him going down an almost certain wrong way. (ok lah i assume it excludes things like seeing him going to kill another man doink). of course u can express your own opinions, but what u should do is to ask him questions and guide him to find his own answer himself.
that's tough frankly, given my character. maybe sometimes, we shld just let them go down the road which we think is wrong. there're certain issues which i've refrained from saying if i agree or disagree to, because i dun think friends have to agree on everything, and sometimes it doesnt even matter if we disagree on some stuff anyway.
i think what's impt is that these people know that i'm always there for them, whether for better or for worse, no matter what. the circumstances dun matter; the people do. no blaming, no finger-pointing, no i-told-u-so, no taking of sides. but how to make sure they know?
there is just this one ultimate thing which i find so difficult to let friends decide. one thing.

It's something Mystical